Wednesday, April 19, 2017

4/19/2017

157.5 today

Monday the 17th was my one year anniversary of Leading With the Diet.  One whole year...365 days...I have never in my life stuck with a "diet" that long, never.  --And I have no intention of stopping!

I still deal with leftover emotional issues of being fat for so long.  (Yes, I used the eff word.)  For instance, I locked up in the shorts section of Wally World the other day, having an internal conversation about which size I needed.  Went something like this:

"You wear a size 14."
But the 14's look so SMALL.  Better buy a size 16.
"You wear a size 14!  Remember, the pants you bought last December are a size 14 and you have plenty of room."
Did I mention the 14's look small?  You CANNOT be THAT small!!
"You are NOT a size 16 anymore!  This is ridiculous--just get the 14's, for crying out loud!!"

It was insane; I mean it.  I stood there so long I was afraid a sales associate was going to think I had intentions of shop lifting!!  I had to force myself to pick up a pair of size 14 shorts and walk away, and even minutes later I was still debating whether they were going to fit.  *sigh*

Anyway, aside from those momentary flashes of crazy, life is otherwise good.

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