157.5 today
Monday the 17th was my one year anniversary of Leading With the Diet. One whole year...365 days...I have never in my life stuck with a "diet" that long, never. --And I have no intention of stopping!
I still deal with leftover emotional issues of being fat for so long. (Yes, I used the eff word.) For instance, I locked up in the shorts section of Wally World the other day, having an internal conversation about which size I needed. Went something like this:
"You wear a size 14."
But the 14's look so SMALL. Better buy a size 16.
"You wear a size 14! Remember, the pants you bought last December are a size 14 and you have plenty of room."
Did I mention the 14's look small? You CANNOT be THAT small!!
"You are NOT a size 16 anymore! This is ridiculous--just get the 14's, for crying out loud!!"
It was insane; I mean it. I stood there so long I was afraid a sales associate was going to think I had intentions of shop lifting!! I had to force myself to pick up a pair of size 14 shorts and walk away, and even minutes later I was still debating whether they were going to fit. *sigh*
Anyway, aside from those momentary flashes of crazy, life is otherwise good.
Wednesday, April 19, 2017
Wednesday, April 5, 2017
4/5/2017
Weight has been between 156-157 for a while now. I'm at a point where my old extra-large clothing looks bad on me--as in, makes me look as if I'm ill. LoL So I'm purging my closet; so far I'm down one pair of slacks and several skirts (and one belt). The skirts hurt the most, because I had collected several over time and now I have to basically start over. (P.s. I hate shopping.) There is only one skirt left in my wardrobe that fits me properly, and I bought that one just last fall. On a happier note though, I can now fit into a dress that I haven't been able to squeeze into for at least a decade. I can't tell you why I held onto this dress for so long...other than it's really pretty and I love the colors...and I suppose I always held out hope that some day I would be able to wear it again. --And that day has finally arrived. I'm starting to ask myself whether I would be okay (emotionally, etc.) if my weight loss stopped here in the mid-150s. Admittedly 156 is not my initial weight loss goal (it's 150)...but it's so close (to 150) and I feel really terrific right now. I feel skinny, and happy, and...content. And I think that last one might be the most important feeling of all: content. So yes, I would be okay if I never lost another pound (but I don't think I'm finished yet). In 12 days I will hit my one year anniversary of Leading With the Diet, and I fully intend to live out the rest of my life eating clean.
Friday, March 24, 2017
3/24/2017
156 today
The almost-constantly changing weather has my allergies and sinuses flaring (along with 99% of the area residents). Almost everyone in the tri-state area is hacking, coughing, and sneezing. I was trying to hold my own, but the coughing got to me. So I broke down on Wednesday and resorted to using some Ricola logenzes that I had stashed at work (from a year ago). I really hated doing it, simple reason being they contain artificial sweetener, but it was that or die coughing. I was concerned about the AS causing some cravings, yet that hasn't happened. It's not like I'm popping a logenze every 5 minutes, so I guess the amount of AS is small enough not to disturb me. I think the moral of the story is to take the medicine if you really, really need it, and worry about the fallout later.
The almost-constantly changing weather has my allergies and sinuses flaring (along with 99% of the area residents). Almost everyone in the tri-state area is hacking, coughing, and sneezing. I was trying to hold my own, but the coughing got to me. So I broke down on Wednesday and resorted to using some Ricola logenzes that I had stashed at work (from a year ago). I really hated doing it, simple reason being they contain artificial sweetener, but it was that or die coughing. I was concerned about the AS causing some cravings, yet that hasn't happened. It's not like I'm popping a logenze every 5 minutes, so I guess the amount of AS is small enough not to disturb me. I think the moral of the story is to take the medicine if you really, really need it, and worry about the fallout later.
Thursday, March 16, 2017
3/16/2017
Weight Loss
156/156 1/2 today. Honestly, there's not much to report, so that's why I only post about once a month anymore--which is probably a good thing, if you think about it. Our weather has decided to remind us that, technically, it is STILL winter, with temperatures dropping from the 60's to the 30's. We even got some snow flurries this week, although no accumulation (thankfully). Anyway, when we start experiencing spring temperatures again (i.e. warmer) then I plan on resuming my daily walks.
Other
I'm growing out my hair again. I just decided yesterday to do so. Numerous reasons...I like the shorter style, really I do. But it takes a lot of maintenance; trims every 4-6 weeks, money for the trims, mousse, blow-drying, washing more often, etc. Plus you know I'm a long-hair woman at heart--probably always will be. So yeah, I'm giving it another go. :-)
The granddaughter is being assessed for kindergarten today, starting this fall. Kindergarten, for crying out loud...when did that happen?? I am not ready for her to be this old, and I know it's even worse for her mama. She's attended a day school since she was a baby, and yet every time I think of her starting regular school, I get a knot in my stomach and feel like I'm going to throw up. I'm not sure why; it's probably tied up somehow with my own mortality.
156/156 1/2 today. Honestly, there's not much to report, so that's why I only post about once a month anymore--which is probably a good thing, if you think about it. Our weather has decided to remind us that, technically, it is STILL winter, with temperatures dropping from the 60's to the 30's. We even got some snow flurries this week, although no accumulation (thankfully). Anyway, when we start experiencing spring temperatures again (i.e. warmer) then I plan on resuming my daily walks.
Other
I'm growing out my hair again. I just decided yesterday to do so. Numerous reasons...I like the shorter style, really I do. But it takes a lot of maintenance; trims every 4-6 weeks, money for the trims, mousse, blow-drying, washing more often, etc. Plus you know I'm a long-hair woman at heart--probably always will be. So yeah, I'm giving it another go. :-)
The granddaughter is being assessed for kindergarten today, starting this fall. Kindergarten, for crying out loud...when did that happen?? I am not ready for her to be this old, and I know it's even worse for her mama. She's attended a day school since she was a baby, and yet every time I think of her starting regular school, I get a knot in my stomach and feel like I'm going to throw up. I'm not sure why; it's probably tied up somehow with my own mortality.
Tuesday, February 28, 2017
2/28/2017
157lbs today
I haven't posted anything in a month because, honestly, there wasn't anything exciting happening. My weight stalled this month (February), hanging somewhere between 158 and 159 most days, with a 160 showing up a couple of times. Then over the weekend I finally dropped to 157. So how did I break the stall? --What did I do? Nothing. I simply kept doing the work of eating healthy and leading with the diet. I didn't panic, I did not switch things up, or try different foods. Stay the course, children, and it will work.
I haven't posted anything in a month because, honestly, there wasn't anything exciting happening. My weight stalled this month (February), hanging somewhere between 158 and 159 most days, with a 160 showing up a couple of times. Then over the weekend I finally dropped to 157. So how did I break the stall? --What did I do? Nothing. I simply kept doing the work of eating healthy and leading with the diet. I didn't panic, I did not switch things up, or try different foods. Stay the course, children, and it will work.
Wednesday, January 25, 2017
1/25/2017
158.5 today
According to the BMI chart, I am officially considered "normal weight". To say I am elated would be an understatement. To deny being a little scared would be a lie. I've been overweight, obese, for so long that of course I'm thrilled. I feel so healthy...like a new person. And yet I have to admit of being scared of sliding back into old (bad) eating habits, of letting my guard down. I remain ever vigilant of errant thoughts, even though I haven't experienced any thought of cheating since I started Leading With the Diet. I remind myself that I am in control of my eating, I and I alone. Rereading Adele's essays is also helpful when I feel a bit paranoid about this journey.
According to the BMI chart, I am officially considered "normal weight". To say I am elated would be an understatement. To deny being a little scared would be a lie. I've been overweight, obese, for so long that of course I'm thrilled. I feel so healthy...like a new person. And yet I have to admit of being scared of sliding back into old (bad) eating habits, of letting my guard down. I remain ever vigilant of errant thoughts, even though I haven't experienced any thought of cheating since I started Leading With the Diet. I remind myself that I am in control of my eating, I and I alone. Rereading Adele's essays is also helpful when I feel a bit paranoid about this journey.
Tuesday, January 10, 2017
1/10/2017
Today was a perfect example of Lead With the Diet principles...
My department enjoyed our "after the holidays" luncheon today at a local BBQ restaurant. I was happy about this because I know from experience that their pulled pork is served naked (sans sauce). The buffet held said pork, along with ribs (also naked), potato salad, baked beans, berry cobbler, brownies, and ice cream. I filled my plate with pulled pork--must have eaten at least a pound of the stuff, maybe two! However...I had also planned ahead. I brought "good" food to work with me today, just in case the BBQ place failed me. Always plan ahead!
My department enjoyed our "after the holidays" luncheon today at a local BBQ restaurant. I was happy about this because I know from experience that their pulled pork is served naked (sans sauce). The buffet held said pork, along with ribs (also naked), potato salad, baked beans, berry cobbler, brownies, and ice cream. I filled my plate with pulled pork--must have eaten at least a pound of the stuff, maybe two! However...I had also planned ahead. I brought "good" food to work with me today, just in case the BBQ place failed me. Always plan ahead!
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